Dear buddies
Some of you I’ve known for awhile, others I’ve just met. I’ve had long conversations with some of you, others I’ve not yet talked to. Some of you have sent me wonderful booster notes and did not get any in return (and I am so sorry for not being a good buddy). Some of you wonder why I dropped off the map. Some of you are former teammates and others are not. But you all have this in common: I care about you and want to see you succeed, and I’m glad you’re my buddies.
I joined this site a little over four months ago, made many friends and acquaintances here, lost 20 pounds (and recently another pound), and was briefly part of a wonderful team that I loved dearly.
Unfortunately I am no longer part of a team, and there are several reasons for that but the main one is that I need to get my health back in order. Until that happens, I don’t have anything to offer anyone.
A few months ago, I started to have a lot of pain and went for a CT scan. What I always thought was an abdominal fatty tumor turned out to be an incisional hernia from my old gallbladder surgery. I didn’t say much at the time but I was pretty horrified. I mean, I had been really getting into Pilates. What could be a worse choice for someone with an abdominal hernia?!
So the doctors told me not to exercise, not even the treadmill. Needless to say, my motivation took a nosedive and I was very frustrated about being relegated to the sidelines.
At the same time all this was going on with my health, my little boy started having behavioral problems. (He’s 5 and has autism.) He went from being a happy and affectionate little guy who loved school, to not wanting to go to school and having sudden angry outbursts and even yelling and hitting me - so totally not like him. I was obviously concerned and worried. There was a communication breakdown between me and the school, and I was basically on my own trying to figure out what was happening (never did) and how to help him.
To make a long story short, I looked at 5 different school programs and he is in a different school now and loves it, I have been doing a lot of home therapy with him despite my pain and health issues, and he is back to his happy and sweet little self with no signs of whatever was going on before that caused all those problems.
Then a few weeks ago I found myself in the hospital with severe anemia, along with dehydration. I’ve struggled with chronic anemia for years, but my numbers had been better until recently and so they were convinced I was bleeding internally somewhere, but all the tests were okay. I managed to narrowly avoid a blood transfusion and have been doing all right with iron supplements.
So next week I will be having surgery to repair the hernia. I’ve had this hernia for over six years without knowing what it was, I was always too busy taking care of my little boy and putting myself and my health on the back burner.
I’m hoping to restart my diet and exercise plan when I’ve recovered and my health is back in order. I love this site and I love you guys, thanks for reading this.
Good luck! We are here when you need us, and when you don’t!
Jenn-
girl, you sure are going through a lot right now. I wish you the best of luck with your surgery.
I am glad to hear that your son is a lot happier now–thats always a blessing isnt it.
Now, you know how we are. We understand that you need time to take care of yourself and your son. We also care about you. Sometimes its not in us to be a good buddy right now-then, its our time to be a friend to you and try to support you any way we can ok. So, good luck with surgery girl and we are praying for you. Sending hugs…
good luck with your surgery!
Jen, girl i am so happy for you that your little boy is oke now and happy.
Glad you wrote this blog.
All the best and good luck with the surgery.
will be thinking obouth you
Take good care and take all the time you need.
We are still here if you need us.
Big hug
Jen, will be praying for you and your son. We are here for you, ok? Doesn’t make you a bad buddy when life happens! Hugs!
Good luck with the surgery. I hope you have a quick recovery.
We’ll always be here when you ready/allowed to continue on in your journey.
Hey honey,
Good luck next week with the surgery. I’ll be thinking of you and sending positive healing vibes your way. You’ve been a wonderful buddy, so don’t worry about taking some time out to look after yourself.
So glad the school is working out. You both deserve an easier time of it.
We’re here whenever you need us, and will be here when you are able to come back.
Take good care of yourself,
lots of love,
Fi
Aww Jen we have misssed you so much! I’m sorry to hear all the recent struggles you have been going through that is terrible. On top of it all having to figure out what is making your son upset…I’m sure it has not been an easy road for you. I wish you the best of luck with your surgery. I hope that it helps you start to feel back normal. When you are feeling like you can come we would love to have you on our new team.
Jen, I am so glad you will be getting that surgery soon and hope this will get you 100% on the mend, we are here for you for more than just weight loss, so if you every feel like you need someone to talk to just come on.
Hugs and will be thinking of you
Kelly
(((Jen)))) I was just able to get on here. I’m sooo glad you wrote this. I know I’ve kept in touch via e-mail, but I miss you!!
You are in my thoughts and I’m sending many hugs and much love your way! xoxo
I am so sorry to hear you have been going through so much. I’m praying your surgery goes well and you recover quickly. Thank you again for taking the time to support me especially when you are going through such a tough time. Its buddies like you who help me continue this journey.
Wow do you ever have alot on your plate. I can’t imagine that you have nothing to offer here. I am sure that all your web friends would really like to hear from you. I don’t know you, but I wish you well.